I have been inspired this morning by these worship songs, I hope it is just the nourishment your soul needs as well. I had a long conversation yesterday with our adoption facilitator (who I love) and while there is no news that our referral is just around the corner, I was able to glean some insight as to why I ache for my baby. She said that rarely is the case that a couple calls in that has decided to adopt, THAT DAY. Most people discuss, pray about it, research countries, then agencies, then pray about it some more etc. If you know our story than you know that adoption is something we have talked about since before Parker was conceived. (this may come as a shock to some) We have visited this thought of adoption many times over the 15 years we have been married. I would say that God started really whispering to me about three years ago that it was time, I guess He knew how stubborn and hardheaded we are, so He started preparing us many years ago for this journey that we are now on. So when you look at the top of our blog and you see the CUTEST time line ever to bringing baby home and it says 3months and 1week and counting, that is really crap! (forgive me?) It really hasn't been just this short amount of time, it has been years, 13 or 14 really long years preparing for this journey to our baby. Most of you reading this entry will in no way be able to relate, but "CAN I GET A WITNESS?" I am aching for my child, my two greatest kids in the whole wide world are aching for their new sibling, and my dear best husband in the whole wide world, who is patient and trusts in HIS timing, though he may not feel the ache as intensely as I, he is aching for our child also. So this morning I choose to cry out to my Father, my best friend, the quiet comforter of my hurts, and trust in Him to provide rest for my soul, health, love and peace to my child's birth mother, abundant nourishment for my child on the other side of the world; nourishment in the form of love, gentleness, touch, joy, peace, food for the tummy, health and all the other forms of nourishment that only HE knows my child needs. I am blessed, so blessed to know and trust that God will provide.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
It is pretty amazing to see this much snow here in SE Mo. We have been very lucky as we still have power, have lost no trees etc. There has been much destruction even just 30 min south of us. Parker and Paeton have enjoyed the last couple of days off school and are thrilled to find out that it is cancelled again tomorrow. They had a blast playing in the snow today. We have about 4" of ice under 5" of snow! It is funny to see our diving board covered in snow and ice. . . any one for a swim? Polar Bear club now forming and new members welcome! Jamie has de-iced the birdfeeders so our little winged friends can still eat. I haven't left the house in two days and have really enjoyed staying in my jammies and being pretty lazy. All the snow is getting us excited for our upcoming vacation to Beavercreek! We had so much fun in Jackson Hole, WY last year and the kids learned to ski. Our good friends, the Deimunds have invited us to their family home there in Colorado for a week of skiing and fun! We will also stop in Denver on the way out to meet other families we have met who have/or are adopting from Ethiopia. Our adoption agency is also located there in Denver and we are really looking forward to meeting everyone and the kiddos who have made it home from ET and also excited about being able to ask all kinds of questions to those who have gone before us and have their children home! We are keeping warm, enjoying lot's of hot cocoa with lots of marshmallows and plenty of good ol' snuggle time!(our favorite!!)
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Hi Prayer Warrior Mommas!
Hannah thank you for starting this prayer loop, as I see it we would not be able to get through this without prayer, or the prayers of others on our behalf(and the other way around) We started on this journey of adoption officially in June 08 when my husband finally agreed to let me look into adopting a child from africa. I had a seed planted in my heart long before this. We too went through some infertility issues in the late 90's but were able to conceive a son and a daughter who are now 12 and 10 years old. Spring of 08 God really confirmed to me that adopting was what He wanted for my family. He lead us through a series of events that my husbands heart was finally softened and he truly felt like God had taken a baseball bat to his head to get his attention. Jill K, I just read your story and the amazing thing is that God also used the book of JONAH to confirm His will for me. Our pastor did a sermon series last spring on the little book and after church I went to the prayer chapel and just cried out to HIM because I was finally honest with myself that it wasn't just my husband holding things up, it was me too! We went out to dinner with our two children and they began asking questions why was I crying? God had just gotten real honest with me, and I with Him, and so I told my children the truth. (Warning, this is real gut level sharing here, it's not pretty, but it was truly me, stuck in a terrible place. Please proceed with grace and forgiveness in your heart for me)
So I began to tell my children about the sermon on JONAH, and how I felt that God was really shaking me up because I was not listening to His call for me. I told them that He had put adoption on my heart (THEY KNEW THIS, WE TALKED A LOT ABOUT IT) and frankly I was pulling a JONAH and running the other way. I was hiding behind Jamie (dad, my husband) and his doubts, but the truth was I was scared. I was scared if the baby would be healthy, how it would impact our family, we have the best son and daughter on earth; how could I risk messing that up? I was also scared because I really felt that He was calling us to AFRICA which would mean that we would have a black child, and raise this child in our small town full of mostly white people, how would they fit in? And of course I couldn't stop thinking that my kids were practically grown, just a few years they would be out of the house, not to mention the me time I had! And I was thinking about going back to being a mom to an infant? Also feeling a little selfish, we had made it through med school, through residency, and now we were at a point in our lives that I could actually start shopping at Saks, not the secondhand stores, and I could afford to drive the LEXUS I had dreamed of, vs the economical minivan, and if I was to adopt a child, then frankly that gold ROLEX I'd wanted for so long would no longer be a reality! See, I told you it got pretty bad, please forgive me? And then out of the mouths of babes, my son says, "Mom, this is from God, He only has good things in store for us. He would not ask us to do something that might bring us harm."
Perspective! I got it! A friend that was actually not very supportive gave me a copy of Kay warrens book, Dangerous Surrender. She had started to read it, gave it to me saying this book is for you. I read it, read it to my husband, who was pretty close to opening his heart by now, and we prayed the prayer God was waiting for: "Yes Father, what ever it is, we will do it. Your will Father not mine." Never been so scared before in all my life, I kid you not, I was scared to death to pray that prayer, but with it came so much relief and peace. I felt empowered to adopt our child, FAITH NOT FEAR!
There is a large community at our church who have adopted domestically and internationally. God introduced Jamie and I to Eric and Chantelle (IAN waiting family currently #1 on the baby girl list) and she and I got together for lunch a couple of days later, a couple of weeks later we had signed with IAN, began our homestudy process, collecting the dossier, and on Oct 22, we were officially on the waiting list. We were #13 for baby girl and # 8 for baby boy. Today we are #8 for baby girl and #4 for baby boy. We haven't looked back and God is growing us closer to HIM and more to His likeness I am proud to say. So there it is, the good the bad and the ugly!
Why should we care for/about orphans? Pastor, Rick Warren, author of the best seller, The Purpose Driven Life and Pastor of Saddleback Church in California explains why. I recommend taking the 9 min to listen to his message. If you have not read his book, The Purpose Driven Life, I will send you one for free. If you are one of the first three people to respond to this post I will personally send you a copy of his book FREE! His book is life changing, life transforming! It will help you understand why you are alive and God's amazing plan for you-both here and for eternity. THe book will guide you through a 40-day spiritual journey that will transform your answer to life's most important question: What on earth am I here for? If you have not read this book just leave me a comment and I will happily send you a copy. In the above video clip, Pastor Warren gives the staggering statistic that in the USA there are 115,000 children waiting for adoption but globally, there are 150 million orphans in the world! Having a hard time wrapping your brain around that number? Me too, so that is why I will post the youtube video, 143,000,000 orphans. Watch it next and it will help you digest that number into pieces you can comprehend.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
I just loved watching this video of God adding the love of Jordan to this family. I can not wait until I can post my own video of God blessing our family with someone new to love. I also liked the photos of Ethiopia in this video, this will give you somewhat of an idea of where our little one will come from. Just remember the orphanage is the Taj Ma hal compared to where the orphans come from. The most important thing I keep reminding myself of is the words those who have gone before me speak when they get home. They cannot believe how well cared for the children are, how LOVED they are, they are amazed with the people who work at the orphanage! Today I am thanking God for those people! Asking Him to bless them abundantly for being His hands and His feet to the children until mommies and daddies can come and take their children home.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the first born among many brothers. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified; he also glorified. Romans 8:28-30
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Friday, January 23, 2009
This is for my sister Wendy who is planning a November wedding. Hey sis, if you'd like to move up the date, we have plenty of room for entertaining out back, lovely landscaping and of course the pool! Just consider who Aric chooses for his bestman okay!
OK, it's been a little heavy here at the FROG blog, and now that I have your attention about the orphans in Africa, and how God can use us all to make the difference, I thought I'd lighten the day up a little. I saw this baby on Americas Funniest Video show one evening, the kids and I laughed so hard. Hope he makes your day !
Thursday, January 22, 2009
This video is shocking. It will make you cry. It seems impossible that children today could really live like this. The truth is millions of children do live like this. This is an everyday reality for millions of children! Don't push the pause button, let this make you sick, and then pray and ask God how He can use you to help his children.